Wednesday 28 December 2011

Some Belated Scroogery

Well, the good news is that I'm actually selling copies of Storms. I was really nervous about putting it out, but now that it's published it's not actually that scary. Well, until I start getting reviews in which will be very scary indeed.

The bad news is that my cough has progressed into a full-grade body-wracking rumble that makes me sound like I'm auditioning for the role of over-enthusiastic-consumptive patient #3 in a Victorian era drama. Not only is the cough itself painful, but I've coughed so hard that I've inflamed the muscles between my ribs, and it hurts to breath, move, hold things or, you guessed it, cough.

I also haven't had a full night's sleep in over a week, which has taken my already 'pale Irish' complexion down to 'living undead'.

The fact that this has happened over Christmas just adds to my general feeling of joie de vivre. I have friends home from the UK, I have family occasions that I want to go to, and I've missed them all.

The worst thing is the guilt. I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm not sure that everyone understands my illness at the best of times, but when I get another infection on top of it it makes everything more intense.

Sometimes, I'd just like to be able to plan my life without factoring in fibromyalgia. I'm really fed up today.

This has been an awful self-pitying post. Luckily, I'm over at Caitlin Lane's blog today, being a bit more upbeat and talking about writing for a living.

Promise I'll be in a better mood tomorrow!


  1. Last Christmas I had the same, horrid cough. It truly ruined the holidays for me, so I totally feel your pain. I hope you are able to shake the illness soon.
    I have been out of touch with life in cyber space, so I had no idea Storms is out there. I will definitely check it out.
    Best to you, Christine.

  2. I do hope you feel better soon! A cough like that is just awful! and during Christmas too! Yuck! It is hard when family and friends don't understand the Fibro and then add an infection right on top of it, they don't get it. I hope the doctor gives you some quick anitbiotic to fix this so you can enjoy new years with Polly Pocket and the hubby!!!!!


  3. I'm so sorry you've been poorly. It's bad enough at the best of times, but at Christmas when you're expected to be festive, no matter what, it really gets you down.

    Take care of you.